Jan 17, 2010


I feel bad
I suddenly feels that my world is dull
No one can ever be my good listener
Nor anyone to be my good advisor
So i prefer keeping everything on my own
I wanted everything to come to an end
I dont care whether is a good end or a bad end
I just want everything to come to and end
I wan to live life my own without any worries
OMG!!! what the freaking f***ing thing im trying to blog...

Dec 23, 2009

10 things that i dont understand

  1. I dont understand why must we fold our clothings everytime after we washed them (we are wearing it again anyway)
  2. I dont understand why there are ''some'' hypocrates keep wasting their time doing lousy stuff instead of doing something more meaningful
  3. I dont understand why 1+1 must be equals to 2
  4. I dont understand why tatoos are cool
  5. I dont understand how I grow taller, fatter and stuff like that as im looking at myself everyday and it ALWAYS look the same each time i look at myself in the mirror but as I look back at the photoes when i was a kid i can see a TREMENDOUS change in me
  6. I dont understand why GIRL have menses but GUYS dont
  7. I dont understand why I need to study like nobody business but what I get is not as good as the ''somebody'' who played videogames all the time(I know im stupid if you are trying to let me know that i am actually stupid == )
  8. I dont understand why we need to tell lies when there are actually nothing to be hide about
  9. I dont understand why I should understand what i must understand as I dont feel like understanding it because I still wont understand it either.
  10. I dont understand why all my mum will answer on my ''dont-understand-question'' is


Nov 23, 2009

my new dress!!!

Just bought this dress.

Plan to wear it for the lassale-camp annual dinner or whatever name that it should be named -.-ll

I got lots of comments on this dress and i need more comments!!!

What  do you guys actually think about this dress???

Im soooo frustrated on choosing which dress i should wear to that dinner.

I know 

it is just a dinner but it a female's nature  to look pretty right??


Nov 19, 2009


I know im crazy

Forgive me for being crazy

But im getting crazier and even CrAzIeR!!!

I dont know what you guys think but i just think that i deserve MUCH MORE better than what i should get right now.

After doing sooo many damn things what i get in return is just a sense of 


This GOD DAMN WORLD is full of imitations and fake expressions(i just dont know how to say nor describe in words >< )

Though i know that i wont forgive 100% you but still make a fake expression as though 


But thanks to this whatsoever-like-i- care person

i had learn my lesson which is 


Nov 13, 2009

OMG!!!! check this out ><

After my grandma had become a legal driver for YEARS and YEARS she had totaly become a profesional driver as you can see in the picture below!!!!

After MONTHS abd MONTHS of ME being a LEGAL driver i realise that i carried my grandma genes ^^

I know you all are emo-ing right now because you guys dont have this 'cute genes' like me and my grandma have but be jealous. You guys can have one if TRAINED ><

Howdy!!! back to blogging

I am soooo sick of having soooo many emo things already.I've decided to have a tiny little weeny change to better.JUST recently , my friend  LEE MEI YING was crapping about the 2012 thing where it is a ressurection year. I suddenly think hard on what will happen to me. Will i this or will i that??Many questions are drowning my brain where i suddenly got to realise the fact that life is short and we must treasure every moment when we are still alive. I know i sounds crazy meantioning this 'life and death' thing but who cares..LOL...But one thing i know is i will never suffocate myself with all the problems hanging in my head EVER AGAIN^^


Aug 28, 2009

Wan to go subang T.T

I regretted choosing form 6. Seriously im rather dissapointed with lots of things happening around me these few days. I just want to leave here ASAP!! I really cant stand it anymore. Life in this pathetic teluk intan letting me feel the croud of HELL!! I really wanted to stay and STUDY in SUBANG. I miss my friends in subang a lot. I just want to leave everything around me. Cant imagine how happy would i be now if im studying in colledge in SUBANG!!!URH!!


Aug 10, 2009

apologies to VENNESA CHOI EE VENN!!!

CHOI EE VENN!!!somehow and some what i did not upload OUR pic in my previous post...soooo very very SORRY le...hmm...may be you got FACE PROBLEM and that is why my comp did not approve u..tee~~~hee~~!!!!But  still i love you always...MUACKZZZ...

by the way, choi ee venn is more sakai than me..got a competitor on the WORLD MOST SAKAI-EST ppl.... ><

Aug 8, 2009

My 18 years OLD birthday..

My birthday just pass and guess what??im damn freaking old now...LOL..Go a soo cal surprise selebration with my friends...at first i was TOLD by pohsheen that we will be having a GIRLS' NIGHT OUT in a karaoke!!!!then i wear 'fewer' cloth to that occasion..When i enter that room suddenly bing-bang-boom there are a lot of GUYS n gals in that  room shouting 'SURPRISE' and indeed im kind of surprise la.heheh..Sing till i really lost my voice.heheh..then we head to mcd but unfortunately lotz of them had went back home cua the following day got class.heheh..I dont have any pics in karaoke wif me rit now will upload it soon yea..hjeheh...i am damn happy on that day.Thanks a lot to all my chimui's for planing hard for this..heheh..love you all lots..heheh...

BY THE WAY, reli reli rlei reli a THOUSAND apologies to mis dapne soo..she called me just to wish me birthday but i cant reli talk long as i am in mcd bout to sing song ady..So DAPHNE if you ever read this I AM SOOO SORRY yea?^^

missing: huiyeng, kevin tan n dno got hu summore la.hehhe

This drawing is ORIGINATED by LOUIS KONG!!!at first when i receive this pic i was wondering what is it as it is hard to see cause it is in yellow and the pic is rotated...but after observing only i know that it is my BIRTHDAY cake,..love ita lot LOUIS..thanks yea^^

Dont know somehow and somewhat i mis-upload this pic..Credits to vennesa who 'kacau' me during muet tuition..LOL....love this shot neway cause itz hard to see me study...LOL

P/S ; thanks to all my friends who wish me happy birthday and not to be forgotten on all the efforts on upbringing my special day yea..and i OFFICIALLY pronounce myself as OLD ady as i had alr hit eigh***n..wow.....18 years!!!!!..MUAXXIE

COMPLEC(Combination pf Prefect and Librarian Camp)

Whoa~~!!!at last im in the mood in blogging!!Going to blog from the start...Went to COMPLEC camp in 18th till 19th of july(I guess but who cares) Did not capture any picture during the camp except during the ANthonian Night which is at night...thede are all the pics..lazy to bla-bling so enjoy my pic yea^^

JUST to make things right!!!The white shirt guy is jealous of my indian costume making him cant stop his LUST from taking my shawl away..tee hee~~ IT IS NOT ME trying to cover his face with my shawl..wakkaka...

Tell you what..This guy is soo DAMN cute..You might not realise it at the first glance but TRUST me that he is cute and even cuter at te 2nd or 3rd glance respectively..wakkaka

P/S : waliau ei...never ever in my mind that i want to be a prefect but here i am as a librarian in my school...weird...

COMPLEC(Combination pf Prefect and Librarian Camp)

Jul 3, 2009

i love my CHOCOLATES!!!!!

Today is my WORLD CHOCOLATE DAY!!!gosh~~!!Just love the taste and aroma of it especially when the chocolate is melting right after entering MY MOUTH!!!!yumm yum...I can say no for EVERYTHING but never ever is my CHOCOLATE!!!!

I will never hesitate to eat chocolates cause I will eat it ONCE i say it *wicked smile*

Just found out that i LOVE this chocolate named TWIX..Dont know whether you guys had heard of it before...

FIVE simple steps to enjoy ur chocolate...

1st step : Open it!!(duh~~ how are you gna eat it without unpacking it??)damn!!!i look like a maniac in this pic...wait a sec!!I AM a maniac...buahahah~~

2nd step(optional) :Take a pic with it and act like you never ate a chocolate before XD

3rd step : eat it or you will never going to TASTE the way chocolate melts in your mouth...

4th step : for the fun of it, take a pic of the chocolate.....

5th step : the last is always the best...yum yum!!eat it!!!!!duh!!!

Not enough???take more la...im such an addict to chocolates edi....i take more and more...Most ppl said diamonds are womans best friend and i DO AGREE!!because with one small tiny diamond, you can buy TONNES of chocolates XD

IM CRAZY!!!ALL OVER ME!!!din intend to post this pic out but i just do it for the fun of it!!!!

Better throws it away before my mum saw it!!dun want to get a lecture of gettin diabetes..tee hee~~

p/s: *applause* i TOLD you i pass my driving!!indeed im sure u dont have the talent like i do when it comes to park cars...*wink*

Jun 10, 2009


Kk...finally i am back and guess wat??im UPDATING my blog.I am sooo gonna update my blog already.BUT............................................

but but....................................................................................

but but but...................................................................

i dont know what should i update weih ==!!

so im going to postpone my undating thinghy..

sorry for the inconvenience XD

May 30, 2009

STPM = Sijil Tunggu Pergi Mati

i got that theory from dont know who. But I am POSITIVELY agree with it!!!Plus with some of the schoolmates there i really cant stand it anymore!!!!

tag by yee shien :)

1.Besides your lips, where is the favorite spot to get kissed?
aikz..say NO to KISS!!LOL

2.How did you feel when you woke up this morning?
damn!!there are mosquitoes im my room....

3.Who was the last person/people you took a photo with?
school friend

4.Would you consider yourself spoiled?
nope....im not apple la..how to spoil!!!

5.Will you ever donate blood?

umm...sure...i will advised that PARTICULAR mosquito to donate MY BLOOD!!!

6.Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?

i guess soo..hmmm

7.Do you want someone to be dead?

NO..but  i  wan someone who is already dear remain dead!!!XD

8.What does your last text message say?

STUPID!!text message cant say a single thing!!!

9.What are u thinking right now?

die ady...bunch of unfinished HOMEWORKS!!!!

10. Do you want someone to be with you now?
yes!!!  YES, yes, YES and YES but itz IMPOSSIBLE....t.t

11.What was the time you went to bed last night?

12 sumthing

12.Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now?

i dont even neo the shirt im wearing now exist till i saw it moments ago -.-!!

13.Is someone on your mind right now?

no..my mind is blank

14.Who was the last person who text you?

i got short term memory LOST

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz...
1.my mum
2.my dad
3.my brother
4.my fish
5.my dog
6.my rabbit 
7.my grandma
9.my cousins

10.my auntie XD

15. Who is no. 2 having a relationship with?
my mum la...DUH!!!

16. Is no. 3 a male or a female?
what do u tink BROTHER stands for huh???

17. If no. 7 and and no. 1 get together, would it be a good?
they are mother and daugher :)

18. What is no. 1 studying about?
how to teach me manners XD

19. When was the last time you chatted with them?

20. Is no. 4 single?
YES!!hu wan??

21.Say something about no. 2.
he is my dad???

22.What do you think about no. 2 and no. 6 being together?
weird offspring will come out

23.Describe no. 9.
better not to say to avoid getting into troubles  :)

24. What will you do if no. 6 and no. 7 fight?
my grandma will cook no6 and EAT it

25. Do you like 8?
OF CUZ!!!8 = fatt = rich =$$$$$$$$

May 26, 2009

tag from jyang

1. The person who tagged you is:

2. Your relationship with him/her is:

3. Your first impression of him/her is:
Sei JUN YANG~~~ bully banana me t.t

4. The most memorable moments with he/she is:
ummm.....got  those moments meh??

5. The most memorable thing he/she has said to you is:
when he said 'why ur chinese soo bad'

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...

make him to treat me all thing anything  and everything XD

7. If he/she became your lover, what should he/she improve that:

be true i guess ><

8. If he/she becomes your enemy, what will you do:

burn his house and shave his head..LOL

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:

he snatch away my BOYFRIED and YES!!!he is GAY...

10. The most desired things you want to do for him/her now is:

ask him go die..wakkaka

11. Your overall impression on him/her is:
okok la...nice to talk to mia friend =)

12. The characteristic you love most about yourself:

13. The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
sakai-ing  - come on la...love is hate..heard that before??LOL

14. The most ideal person you want to be is:
myself la.Im PROUD to be myself.wakakka

15. For people who care and love you, say something to them:


16. Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:
1.Jun yang 
4.san san

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
i wan to noe oso wieh~~

18. Is 9 a male or a female?

19. What is 2 studying at the moment?

magazines is all she noes(no offence)

20. Who was the last person you had a chat with?


21. What kind of music does 8 like?
music that come out from my MOUTH

22. Does 1 have any siblings?

yes...i think so

23. Is 4 single?
think so

24. What is the surname of 5?

25. What's the hobby of 5?

kau lui XD

26. Do 7 and 9 get along well?

tink so.....

27. Where is 10 studying at?
some say RAMBAANG in pahang..LOL

28. Say something casual about your eyes:

attractive and NICE ngak!!

29. Have you tried developing feelings for 2?

30. Where does 9 live?
teluk intan

31. What colour does 4 like?

32. Are 5 and 1 good friends? / Do they know each other?
ummm...u ask them la yea ^^

33. Does 2 like 7?
PLS la...dey dunnno each other...

34. How did you get to know 8?
once upon a time...................................

35. Does 1 have any pets?

36. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
sorry la...im the sexiest la k????

37. Are you sexy?
absolutely :)

38. What am I doing now?
sat lun - ing

May 18, 2009

LIES = S-M-I-L-e~~*

Why must everyone around me INCLUDING close one is making a lie? But why I am always the victim of lies? WHY?I am sick of all this kind of nonsense alrady. From today onwards i will reply every faultly deed from 'them' to me with a SMILE!! I may be stupid or insane saying this but YES!!!I am going to reply all lies on me with a smile. Just let them assume that my smile is a sign of forgiveness for their lies.GOSH~~ since i came the hell gate of SASTI i never experience happiness before.Is that a bad omen??hmm..*wondering*   But the main point here is I want to let everyone know that SMILE is the best medicine for everything. You may not beleave me but i think that it is true. 

May 11, 2009

Worst FIRST dayof school experience EVER!!!!

DAMN!!! first day of school i was expecting something to change, SOMETHING that will change my opinion on form6 or maybe somthing that make me putting in some efforf to LOVE my damn NEW SCHOOL!!!Everything goes on pretty well in the 'bored' way with all those talks and craps. Out in a sudden when a teacher named MR CHAN TAK  HENG's turn to crap he is like soo freaking proud of himself as if he got all the qualities of a GOOD TEACHER. He DONT even bother bout his fellow students and he is expecting everyone to go on his way..PLEASE!!!change your damn phathetic attitude..URH! FI-NE...i dont want to care much about form6 already cause i am currently sick on everything  happens around me.

But to be frank, the school stuff didnt lit up the fire of my mood. THANKS to this MR SOMEONE whom send me this very very SMS making me to feel that i am emotion-LESS!! By that time i read the SMS i was stunt and kind of dissapointed on everything.MUST i show out my expression letting everyone to know that i actually DO HAVE PROBLEMS with EMOTIONS??OF CAUSE NOT!!! Because of that i lost my concentration on driving and almost got into a car accident...YES!!it is a car accident!!luckily i manage to brake on time or else i will appear in newspaper about accident wif THREE cars!!Im in a trauma right now. That stupid indian driver STOP at the middle of the road, STEP DOWN from his car and say 'apa kau buat??BUTAKAH?' i feel like crying...

Today is certainly a tough day for me.I hate my school and i have to LOST my concentration. And of cause i dint mention about that infront of my mum. I had learn my lesson of LIFE ND DEATH and i will never ever do the same thing again. I am just hoping for a better day in the future. May God bless me..

May 7, 2009

i HATE it!!!!

  • I am HATING my new hairstyle(mab i cant get used to my looks)
  • I am HATING the stupid form six uniform which looks more like a maid attire.
  • I am HATING my life.
  • I am HATING form six life and also the syllabus.
  • I am HATING to say that i am regret on certain stuff that I had told someone!!urh...
  • I am HATING my going-to-be school

i HATE to HATE soo many things so LEARN TO LOVE IT!!!

May 5, 2009

im s..oooOO LEGAL!!

I drove to tuition ALONE with just me, me ,me and ONLY ME!! Amazingly i am stil ALIVE !!!

AT LAST i dont need to climb from tree to tree to tuition anymore...NGAK!!!

May 4, 2009

My NEW colour!!

OMG!! i LOVE, LIKE and want green...GOSH~~ never knew that green is actually nice.. Kip it going GREEN!!!!

SuBaNg before SCHOOL REOPEN!!!

Hmm..It had been decades(being a lil' time-stupid fella) since i last update my dearly blog. Lots to write about here but kinda lazy to blog oso..hmm..i will just writw about my very last trip to elsewhere before entering the 'hell gate' of FORM 6!!DAMN!!never ever thougt about going form6 but it is a long story...What to do when you are not sure what course to take?FORM 6 is th answer =/

I will just cut out the craps and get back to the 'main topic' *wink* Went to subang for a 3 days 2 night.Umm...its actually 3 days NO nights as i dint think i sleep.OKOK.i will murmur-ing bout my DAY 1..

Day 1...

We planned to meet in 1utama. Never ever tought that I can reach subang SAFE ang SOUND by BUS!!YES!! its B-U-S. Actually I was in genting on that day. Since my mum(gambling in GENTING) was lazy to drove me to subang then suddenly an idea of taking a BUS to 1UTAMA blinks in her eyes. Since i got no other choise and cant really complain much then i take a bus to 1utama..

When i reached 1utama, my head was spinning like hell!!Going to sue that reckless bus driver!!!Then i tried to call my friends to meet me up in 1utama. Few care were made but no answer was gain - making some heat to come out from me. As i was kind of tired throughout the whole jouney and 'obstacles' to 1 utama PLUS al the luggage then i sit down on a bench just RIGHT OPPOSITE a dining shop. That waiter keep looking at me like i got no money and begging for food!!issh!! May be i am too pretty so his eyes somehow glued on my looks..wakkaka..

Later after that yee han called me and i was informed that they were all at the curve because there are sales in ZARA!!it like OMG!!im dying to go..hmm...later after that. i find a locker and dump all my so-call-useless-at-the-moment luggage in it and i start my SHOPPING. SHOPPING is my talent and also passion!! Just cant stand it when i saw everyone is spending money in shopping mall while I am hectically looking at their shopping bags.Few more mins yeehan they all finally finish shopping in the curve then continue shopping in 1utama with me. That stupid mall was like soo humoungous and it takes a zillion lots of effort on finding where my friends are. We were like playing hide-and-seek. 

FINALLY, i saw them. The 'them' are made of ChiaSyn, YeeHan, June, SueLing and KaiLing.hahah..i was soo happy when i finally met them.hmm.Later after some moments, Daphne came with Siok AI and EeLain.The first impression when i saw EeLain and Siok were like WOW!!They really had changed a lot. They are officially hot!!I was sooo happy because i get the chance to meet up with them..there are some pictures taken in 1utama..Take a look XD

Me and Daphne (obviously both of us are still the same sakai and duck- never really change)

Daphne and I again(while waithing for SIok In fitting room)

I dont like this pic(i look soo  hidious but im still hot neway)

Daph photography SKILLS arent that good after all

But IM STILL HOT and of course PRETTY XD

Siok finish her clothings stuff and coincidencely EeLain had finish her shopping in Padini, we manage to take pics of all of 'us'

Fake JAPANESE!!They dont even look like one.I doubt they are malaysians.But if it happen to be me, everyone sure thinks that IM FAKE HUMAN cuz im SAKAI!!!lol...Soo proud that im at least taller than the black kimono girl...

Daphne LOVES taking pics with me...What to do??hmm..i think it is act the other way round..LOL

Day 2...

Woke up KINDA late..Went to lion head around 4 with daph.me and yeeshien.. For some reasons many cant make it.Mostly its because of the LEEHOM concert..URH!!was dying to go but din go t.t

When to KITSCHEN!! the things there are reasonable, nice and nice and cheap and nice..After enterign that shop, me and daphne was complaining that both of us are broke and Yeeshien just laugh at us..Me and Daph bought the same shirt. I love it but daph dun reli like it as it is kinda expose to her cause she seldom wear sleeveless...

We took some pics in a machine. We never knew when and how and what and wateva the machine functions and those pics ended kind of screwed up.But daph skills make those photoes from dead to live..*applause*

Later after that we headed to cinema and watch MALL COP!!We laugh like umm.......just take it as undescribable!!!!hahah..love that comedy show...

At nite we go yumcha at manjung or tanjung??Its either one of them..Kinda confuse..LOL..Go yum cha with few buce of friends....

MOK JUN YANG!!get shorter...haha...

Day 3...

my cell rings...And NOTED that i MUST reach my uncle house by 12 noon!!Im stil dreaming halfway and i am SOOO BLURR..fell soo sorry to wake daphne up to fetch me to my unc's. GUESS WHAT?!!?! i started my journey bout 3PM @#$%^&*((@#%^&*$%^&*(!!!! If  and only if i know that earlier....hmmmm....

Very LASTLY, i reach home bout nearly 6pm..I bath, eat then i SLEEP!!!!!i SLEPT approximately 14 hours and even sleeping beauty cant beat up my record!!!lol...

p/s: to all my friends to subang.. i really owes you a thousand of thanks for meeting up with me, a thousand of apologies for giving all the trouble for you guys meeting me up and ZILLIONS of XOXOXOXOO for you guys...